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My Grandma

2008-08-08T23:40:00.000-07:00

I thought I had to dedicate this post specially to my grandma.All the thoughts and emotions I have been keeping inside has been trying to burst out of me for sometime now. Its just sooo painful dat it has become numb. I wanna keep crying. I wanna feel the pain but i cant. I miss her sooo much. I wanna give her the flower we both like. I wanna c her on the sofa when i go to her house. I wanna talk to her like we used to. I wanna touch her hand and tell her I love her sooo much. I wanna go to her house and sit beside her watch her stupid drama serials and comment and all the nonsense together wid her. I wanna kiss her on the cheek n get a kiss back. I wanna hug her...play scrabble wid her n help her win. I wanna have lunch with her.

Everyday in sch...i jus feel more n more numb. I keep my feelings in myself coz ppl tend to think dat i shld be fine by now. but im not. I jus cant b. I am closer to my grandma than my mum. I do love my mum but everytime i go to my grandma's house there is warmth and u jus feel sooo loved. Even my friends have felt it. There is really no place i feel more at home than my grandma's house.

I miss my cousin leela akka. She was always there when i needed her. now she is uk n i cant even b there to comfort her...afterall she was the closest to my grandma. I feel like hugging her and consoling her but i cant. I feel sooo frustrated, angry and yet sooo numb. I feel very detached from myself. put up a front n life goes on for me.

2008-03-28T20:45:00.000-07:00

Chem common test was screwed la. woah i never study d previous common test so i totally forgot how to do the qns dat i did corrections for previously. other than dat it was ok la. hope to pass the test. i noe i should have done better but yea i will do well for mye. Vinod,Hanif,Cai Er,Ahmad,Durga n i have made a bet that the person who does best for mye will get 5 bucks from the rest. haha will c how it turns out.

I think i gotta work really hard for my maths now. i forgot my pre u 1 n 2 topics. super screwed la. lucky vinod was teaching me sth abt differentiation. i forgot all my a maths all la. mus start working hard from now if i wan decent grades for As.

Last sat had a party at my place. it was for sanjay before he left for denmark. he said he will come every yr to visit us. so yea til den...some pics i took in my hse.

2008-03-21T02:22:00.000-07:00

i went for the party in my uncle's house yday. didnt intend to go but went bcoz of my dad. i sat in my cousin's room and did my econs work n didnt join in the fun. damn sad la. I met sanjay yday. he looked damn good la. when he saw me he came over and gave me a hug. hmm...was weird la. he never hug me before. guess its some denmark way of greeting...a one arm hug...coz he hugged every one there as well.we talked for a while abt the woes of a levels dis yr n his life over at Denmark. he was asking me to open a facebook. seriously i hardly even update my blog n i definitely cannot manage a facebook la. anyway c how it goes.anyway i got loads of work 2 do n got a party in my house on sat as well. testing on how i manage my time with the amt of work and stuff goin on...

CIP

2008-03-20T01:23:00.000-07:00

My class n i went to metta home for low and normal income family children. It was one of the most enjoyable CIP i have done sooo far. The children were very cute and were super enthusiastic abt playing the games we arranged for them. We had ice breaking games and a mini amazing race for the children. the staff had told us that she wanted us to have team building activities for the children. we also had a story telling session for them which they enjoyed very much as well.

My family fren Sanjay came down from denmark for a surprise visit on mon..i was damn shocked la. he didnt even tell his parents. they arrived from their hol in australia to find sanjay on the front porch waiting for them. I havent seen him for abt 2 yrs now. having a family function today,fri and sat jus for him.haha...dunno whether i can go today. got loads of work to do for econs tuition tmr morning. but i will definitely go on fri n sat to see him.

Jus some pics...

Sanjay
grp pic b4 leaving sch for cip

Amazing race
Mr Pow damn cute la

Amazing Race
Story Telling

Simon says...

At the end of it all,one last grp pic

Not well again

2008-03-15T04:26:00.000-07:00

Thursday i went for econs tuition. vinod jus joined my tuition so it was his first lesson. it was quite fun and it was quite a hmm "enriching" lesson. den half way thru the lesson i suddenly started having a cold. i thot it was nth much but when i got home i started having a fever as well! still thot i could go drama on fri but when i woke up on fri my fever was like 38.6 degree celsius! i threw up a few times and i still had to meet shoba to pass her some drama stuff for drama later dat day. I took a cab from my hse to her hse and it was freaking 9 bucks! usually its only 5 bucks! den i took a cab back and wasted a total of 18 bucks! went 2 c d doc. he gave me excuse from pe on mon. i dun get y i keep falling sick. its soo irritating to sit arnd n do nth. woah...i cant wait to get well!!!

Results

2008-03-10T00:51:00.001-07:00

I got my results already...E for lit n B,distinction for tamil. Damn upset la...E for freaking lit which i am capable of doin much better. kinda expected it yet upset. Gotta do well for As now. gonna work n do better for mye after my screwed up results for common test.

freakin out

2008-03-06T05:19:00.000-08:00

Tmr is the results for a levels. Im sooo freakin out. im sooo dead. im gonna fail. i noe how i did the paper. i super screwed it up. im gonna fail!!!
My stupid blog is showing d date for my earlier post wrongly. how do i change it?? i jus posted it on like 4th march and it says 15 feb. its sooo off la. irritating...
Parents meeting session on sat. only my mum's coming. i screwed up common test as well. so yea gonna get it from my mum..im waiting for all d bad things 2 come at once.=(

Finally an update on pics

2008-02-15T23:00:00.000-08:00

Finally I got the time to post something on my blog after 2 mths. haha...actually jus tooo lazy la.

so anyway ill let d pics do d talking...

My cousin and her colleagues from my mum's office sending my cousin off at the airport. she left for australia 2 do her degree. these ppl are great ppl. it was super sweet off them 2 send off my cousin even thou dey only knew her for abt 2 mths.

at the airport sending mona my cousin off=(

Cousin outing before Mona left

We love our grandma!!!=)

My darling grandma n me!!i love her sooo much!

My dear cousins

went out with Hema my best fren since sec sch. Missed her sooo much.

Hema n me

Nandhini(hema's sis), rubini, hema n me

These pics were taken in mid dec...d cousin outings i spent sooo much money on!!

Me and Ruben

Sarath and Chris

Lakshmi and Mimi

Rubini and Mimi

Ruben and Chris

Chris and his Mum

Mimi and Me

updates

2008-01-04T19:50:00.000-08:00

I havent blogged for a long time. been very busy n caught up with things recently. I finally met up wid hema n nandhini during the hols. hema n i missed each other soooo much. we were sooo happy 2 finally meet up. the three of n plus my sis went 2 watch i m legend in amk hub. we were craping d whole time la. i had a great time n i really miss dem loads. she has been my best friend from sec sch n i hope we stay dat way. ill never forget the way she stood up for me in sec sch n i really appreciate it. hope 2 meet up again soon.

My cousins from malaysia n australia came down to s'pore during the last week of d hols. being the oldest in dat grp, i had 2 take responsibilty n bring them out n all. thank god sarath was a great help. we became something like d leaders of the grp. n by leaders i mean like d ones who handle d finances. i think we easily spent arnd 200 bucks over d three days the seven of us went out. i feel super broke la. but it was super fun as well. i cant believe i spent sooo much in three days. i took a lot of pics but havent been able 2 load them yet. will post d pics soon.

sch started 3 days ago n i already had a common test. loads of hw that will last d whole of next week. im starting 2 feel the pressure of a levels already. it super stressful la. durga n i have been studying as thou there are exams everyday!hopefully it will all be fruitful in the end.

2007-12-12T20:03:00.000-08:00

i havent blogged for long...im finally well jus in time before my cousin arrived. i had soooo much of fun wid dem!!! we went to watch enchanted wid all my other cousins. seriously d movie was crap la. damn dumb lucky d movie was a treat by my aunt if not i would have wasted my money. but my younger cuz enjoyed it a lot though...haha. We went shopping for loads of toys n ezra was super happy wid three sets of thomas the train i think.haha...we went to d night safari together. My other cousins sarath n kaminni came along wid us. we celebrated ezra's b'day there. it was super fun la.

the next day 5/12 was my parents wedding anniversary. so i organised a small party in my hse. my cousins n i watched chakde india during d party. its a pretty cool movie. its super short for a hindi movie which is one of the reasons i liked it.when my uncle n d family left d next day...it was soooo sad..really miss those ppl.i wanna go 2 malaysia n visit them but my parents cant take off now.so no hols dis yr den.

Birthday

2007-11-30T00:07:00.000-08:00

I think my b'day yesterday was d worst ever. i was still sick n d doc grounded me at home...so i couldnt go out anywhere. the worst part is dat i promised my grandma dat i will celebrate my b'day in her hse but didnt. i feel sooo bad. it was such a boring lonely b'day. my parents actually planned a party for me but all was cancelled bcoz i was sick. im freakin pissed...sick for three weeks. thats like d whole hols sooo far. on top of dat, my parents had 2 work yday. n dis is the first time dey cldnt take leave. so i jus ended up slacking away my b'day. all i had was a small family dinner at like 10pm coz dats d time my parents came home. its sooo sad. well at least i had that. my mum promised me dat she wld make up for my terrible b'day another day. hopefully its soon. I wanna thank all who wished me yday. really meant a lot 2 me...

2007-11-26T18:57:00.000-08:00

Im still sick..im super irritated. i have been sick for three weeks already. today drama ppl have an outing in east coast park n i cant go! i wanna go but the stupid doc grounded me at hm until today! of all days...jus my luck! tmr whitley ppl meeting up n i really wanna to go. i wanna c dem especially hema. im sick of jus sitting at home n doin nth. so i have decided to go whether sick or not. i jus hope i wun get terribly sick on my b'day bcoz of dat. but im gonna take the risk.

Today

2007-11-16T04:30:00.000-08:00

My dad gave me fantastic news a few days ago. Ezra n Rosh are coming to singapore again! Im sooo happy! i cant wait to have some fun with dem when dey come. my cute little cuz. I really miss dem. but the sad part is that dey wun b staying wid me. their parent think that dey will b troubling us too much. sooo wrong! dey last time dey stayed wid me i was soooo happy. brought loads of laughter to my family. n d little ones running arnd my hse was very different from d usual atmosphere in my hse. i mean my sis is 15. i cant have the same kind of fun with her!! nvm jus happy dey r coming.

today shoba, durga n i went out looking for jobs. we already have jobs but thot of trying sth different as well. we met arnd 12.30pm at toa payoh n went for our first interview wid kelly services. very nice ppl. but dey told us dat we couldnt get the job coz we only can work til dec 31 so yea,first failed interview. den we went to funan centre to apply for helping out at their road show. as usual shoba cam whoring the whole time. dunno y she jus not tired of it. im jus not a photogenic person la. so i dun really like 2 take a lot of pics.shoba,shoba.... on our way there, we met james n nicholas. we actually followed dem into 711 den we spoke for a while n left.

we den went to parkway centre for another interview for flyer distribution but their deal was damn pathetic so shoba jus said dat we "would return" n we disappeared. den we had dis flyer from 711 for a walk in interview. we walked in circle thrice before we actually found the place. before dat while we were walking arnd, i started feeling sick again. felt like throwing out. we passed by this coffeeshop which somehow had the worst possible smell n i jus felt like throwing out. shoba n duraga were freaking out la. but i managed to overcome dat n even went for the interview wid 711. but i continued feeling sick la. something wrong wid my system la. sooo irritating.i have been sick for two weeks.damn long la.

after our fourth interview, we were damn tired. durga n i headed home while shobee went tampines to meet her cuz. overall i ahd a great day spending time wid them la. it was very fun yet tiring. but it was all worth it whether we get a job or not.

Im Back...

2007-11-13T00:47:00.000-08:00

sick,sick,sick
I have been sick for the past 1 week!!!stomach flu...like got no other time to fall sick but three
days before my exam!! Friday the most embarrassing thing happened...i was on my way to sch in the train from amk to bukit batok. suddenly in admiralty i felt like throwing out. I rushed out of the train in time to grab d plastic bag in my bag n puke!!wah...damn embarrassing la. luckily not many ppl in the platform!den i went out of the mrt station n threw away d bag n washed up a bit in macdonalds. wahhh...i cant believe this happened!!!!den i took d train back 2 sch for my lit lesson. Met kevin n vanessa training for marathon..wah u guys...honestly i never train for last yr's marathon.thank god came back a whole piece.my dad was betting dat i was goin 2 faint..haha. anyway during lit lesson i felt like throwing out the whole time la...lucky never sia.lucky nth eventful on the way home as well.

Lit paper was a disaster.kind of la.I was still sick so i was damn lucky dat i didnt puke again. i felt like it n left halfway 2 d toilet but it didnt happen.damn lucky la. poetry was easy.i think i will score for that. but othello n pride n prejudice was crap!!!half the time i dunno wat i was writing la. my hand was damn numb. had 2 b a thunderstorm during d paper.was freakin cold la. even d hall doors opened n closed by itself bcoz of the wind. n d examiners didnt bother 2 close d door la. sooo stupid!!!the wind was bringing in d rain la...i could seriously feel d rain on my back!!!

wat i dun understand is dat y d pu3s were having d same paper as d pu2 h1 students.
1) theirs is d old syllabus
2) they r pu3 n there were other sections of the paper which gives them a choice n us noooo choice!
3)couldnt they jus set a different paper for us!!!!

so irritating!!!like wth...i was doin d same paper as them!!!n they had a choice of questions while we didnt. i hated dat!!watever la wat is done is done..jus hope for good results.anyway im better now but a day after d exam...wats d point!!!

on a happier note, my mum jus got d gold award for excellent service from the government!!Im sooo proud of her. dat calls for a party!!my uncles gonna come over 2 celebrate. my family we jus like 2 celebrate everything la.haha... my mum told me dat she actually forgot abt d award until somebody reminded her.haha typical...sign of aging i say.hehe=)

dats it for now la....will update soon hopefully if the com doesnt crack!

Updates

2007-11-07T03:00:00.000-08:00

wow its been super long since i blogged. My internet damn confused la. actually moodswings. somehow every time doesnt work...sooo irritating!! Anyway its FINALLY back...haha:)

anyway a lots been happening...so yea this post is gonna be damn long..haha.promos over n I got promoted...seriously i think that its a miracle. i really thot i wouldnt make it. I was actually thinking of second options after my mum had a serious talk with me. but looks like i proved all those who didnt believe in me wrong. After i got my results, d first person i msged was leela akka in uk. I had 2 tell her. within a few secs she replied congratulating me. i was soooo happy dat i feel like hugging her but yea not possible. I have been taking her role when i can. i think im doin fine soooo far.

hols here already. i feel that dis yr practically flew past me. it was sooo fast la. i went out wid durga for flag day to help my dad's office charity work. we went to bugis n went begging for ppl 2 donate. some were super generous n donated like 2-10 bucks. some jus counted some spare 5 cents 2 drop. one indian guy put in 50 cents n told me he is an astrologer n asked me for 5 bucks to check my astrology. like wth!!i jus walked away. useless guy. weird character...later we went 2 my dad's office to have ice cream n a drink. haha i think we had quite a lot of fun. rite durga??

my cousin sarath n i went 2 watch pavitra's play in d jubilee theatre a few weeks ago. it was damn cute la. pavitra's role was damn funny la. shobee n ram were with us. i met ram for the first time. quite a nice guy. glad d four of us got along quite well. after d play arnd 10pm, sarath n i decided 2 go bowling coz i told my mum d play ends at 11 so yea we had spare time. so we convinced shobee n ram 2 join us. we walked all d way to marina square only 2 find out dat it was super crowded. haha so we jus decided 2 go back home. ram n i teased shoba d whole time. shoba thats for bullying me in sch man!!haha...sarath had a sleepover at my place dat nite. somehoe dunno y sleepovers r called sleepovers if half d time nobody sleeps. we bought nachos on d way back n watched a movie till arnd 3 i think. den we talked for a while before we finally went 2 sleep n d poor fella had 2 wake up at 7am 2 go for tuition n insisted i had breakfast wid him. sweet revenge...

my parents went batam for a weekend getaway. wateva for. so i had like movie marathons n sarath came n joined my sis n me.den my parents went malaysia 2 days after dey came back for an uncle's wedding.haha so more movie marathons. i went 2 sch wid my eyes burning. haha it was fun.

hey hems, it was sooo nice talking 2 u d other day. i really cannot come ur hse tmr for deepavali coz i will b goin visiting as well. we will meet on d 28th k?? no changes k...i really miss nans n u. after Os we went out on d 28th as well..haha a day before my b'day. i cant wait 2 turn 18. at least i turn 18 before durga. til d 28th den.all d best for ur papers.

ok i got 3 parties for deepavali on thur, fri n sat.most prob wun go for d sat one coz i got lit paper on mon. scary....its sooo fast.preparing for dat now.

last of all, some stuff happened n i thot i lost a someone forever. it hurt me loads, coz i thot d person didnt understand me n my exact intentions for doing wat i did. looks like dat bit is kinda true.. now dat d misunderstandings has cleared, i jus hope dat we are more able 2 trust each other more n remain best friends. jus want u 2 noe dat ur friendship means a lot 2 me...

My Cousin

2007-09-05T22:16:00.000-07:00

My cousin leela jus left for uk yday 2 do her degree. She is doin her degree on physiotherapy. I totally MISS HER!!! Im feel so lost. She has always been there for me when i needed her. Whenever I had problems she is the first one i turn too. Now she is soooo far away. Who do I turn 2 now?? She always seemed ready to listen whenever i called 2 talk. Always organising outings so dat all the cousins always keep in touch. She is always sooo fun to be wid n never makes anyone feel awkward. Now that she is not around...I gotta be the one who takes charge a bit and do the stuff she has been doin. It feels weird. She has always been a role model figure 2 not only me but 2 all the cousins. I cant be that....I dun fit the bill. I cant do this...Sarath told me we gotta go out more often coz he is also missing his sis. Im like taking her place. My youngest cousin "mims" said the same thing. I dunno if i can. Promos is next week. If i dun make it...wat kind of a role model am i!! I starting 2 feel a bit scared...Watz goin on???

Concert

2007-08-26T01:06:00.000-07:00

Last Friday, Azulina, Noor and I went 2 watch d mi arts fest. Azu is my primary sch best fren n in 10 yrs fri was our first outing 2gether. I noe its damn pathetic. So we were damn excited la.It was super fun. Azu n noor were creating havoc d whole time! Noor kept shouting shoba, azu n my name in the concert when we not even performing. Den when ake started...He started shouting his support for Mei Ling. Only after dat ppl started shouted for others. Haha..I managed to get him 2 shout valerie as well. Haha. Jus when i wanted him 2 shout yin whee d curtain closed. sori yin whee... It was damn funny. Den azu n noor had a little fight n i was trying 2 b a mediator la. Den realised dat azu was jus kidding. Haha den noor tricked saw wah n told her he was in her sec sch n asked her 2 recall. Saw wah damn confused la. He jus went on and on. Azu n I jus couldnt stop laughing. Finally Saw wah left super confused!!!Damn entertaining!!! The drama performance was fantastic. Moved azu 2 tears. Noor n I didnt understand 2 a certain extent. haha...Azu explained it 2 us. Lol. But it was nice la.We plan 2 meet up soon. We also met Shaza n Vinod at the bus stop after d play. We were crapping as we waited for shoba who lost her wallet. Shoba called me d next day n told me d sch attendant found it. lucky an honest student returned it to the sch. haha. We had great fun dat day...Hope to meet up with dem soon. Most prob after promos.

Promos happening now. Pw taking up soooo much of time. I stayed up til 3am 2 go wr. Damn tired la.Been sleeping late almost everyday. Giving tuition on top of dat. Feeling very tired...lit essay to do now. So yea..Will try 2 update soon.

Thinking

2007-08-15T21:18:00.001-07:00

I have been thinking a lot...Wat exactly is my talent?Do i even have 1?Im not sure...All these while my mum never allowed me to lose focus on studies. I have not really been doin anything different or "discovered" any talent in me. For drama, we are supposed to showcase some talent n use it 2 audition 4 next yr's syf. I dun think i have a talent. Wat do i do den?Im planning 2 skip the auditions coz i noe i cant do anything. I noe my sis damn happening but i dun have potential in a specific area dat i can develop. Although i would really like 2 b on stage 4 syf...I cant audition. Even if i audition im scared dat i will not make it through dis yr. Wats d point den??Just some thoughts...

Happening man!!!

2007-08-12T03:47:00.000-07:00

Sooo much has happened. I think i can write a whole compo la!!! After my last post dedicated 2 my sis, many have asked me 2 dedicate a post 2 dem as well. Seriously ppl, Dats too many ppl 2 handle. I love all u ppl and i dun need to dedicate a post 2 u ppl just 2 show u guys. Meanwhile Im determined 2 stop slacking after my horrendous mye results. Im putting in more effort now. Starting 2 feel d stress now dat im sooo close 2 promos.Pw work and hw mounting so high. Wah feeling d stress man. Its not dat Im not having fun at times. National day celebration in sch damn happening la!!! Vanessa rocked man. Haha dun think I laughed sooo much recently. True dat it wasnt as happening as last yr's national day celebration but it was fun la. Kevin vanessa n I were crapping d whole time la. N best thing was d ne council put d hossan leong comedy i was telling vanessa abt coz i watched it b4 . Damn funny la dat fella. Den we were wondering if he was a gay. D way he walks la. It was sooo gay la. Haha...

On Fri, Durga, mazuin, nashreen n i went out 2 watch rush hour 3. Quite a funny movie. Enjoyed it really. Durga, nashreen n I went 2 timezone while mazuin when 2 meet her fren...We played the car racing game. Nashreen damn violent la. Kept knocking durga n me 2 d wall n making our cars fly!! So i did dat in d sec game n won. haha...Achievement man!!! Haha..

Yesterday my sis went 2 st james power station for the release of the album of the 8 finalists for the ARC competition. Damn cool la. My sis(Rubini) n her band released a song in d album. Its an original song. The music direction for d song was done by my sis!!!! Lyrics and singing were done by her band mates. Damn happening la. I listening 2 d song already. Its not like a fantastic song but its really good for a group of 15 yr olds!! Seriously!! Proud of her man!!!! She's taking part in Roving Dv competion now dat ndp rehearsals are all over n done with. See how this competitions comes along. Alrite den my essay is done. Will update soon

My Sister

2007-07-06T00:17:00.000-07:00

Exams are finally over. Happy B'day Mei Ling!! Love yeh loads. Hope u r having a FUNTASTIC GREAT time!!
I have been thinking about wat to post and I have decided to dedicate this post to my sister, Rubini. I have been very proud of my sister recently. She has been involved in many national competitions recently and doin quite well in them. She is Sec 3 and I think at the end of sec sch she is goin to have a very impressive testimonial. She took part in the Art Repertoire Competition with her group in May and made it 4th in the secondary sch catergory. I was very impressed with that as it tests ur skills in music direction, marketing the music plus vocals and loads more. My sis was the music director. All the eight finalists will be releasing an album together which will most probably be out tentatively around national day. Dats really cool la. furthermore she is taking part in another competition now.Drama competition...Got thru the preliminary rounds already. Its the fouth competition she is taking part in. She has done well in all of them. Im sooo proud of her. However some people are discouraging her to take part in too many competitions coz they think that there will not be bright future in this line. I totally disagree. I think she has the potential and she should go ahead. she is also doin well in her exams. she is also taking part in this yr's NDP.She will be dancing. Haha can't wait to see that. I keep laughing at her and she is sooo angry. Haha can't imagine her dancing. Lol! Jus wishing my sis all the best... dun have other pics in my com now. Will post more soon.

M'sia

2007-06-26T23:48:00.000-07:00

My Malaysia trip was fantastic...I met all my little young cousins. About five of dem r under eight. I feel sooo old with dem la. Den two of them started calling me aunty vino.Like wth!I can be an aunty!!!Im only 17!!Damn mischievous bunch. Ezra was sooooo cute! My mum bought for him a racing car and refused to give it to him unless he threw away the pacifier..

My mum: Ezra, only big boys play with racing cars.N big boys dun use pacifiers

Ezra: Oh...I throw already

My mum: Really u sure u dun have it? Can I check ur room?

Ezra: Im throwing it now

My mum: give it to me.Ill throw it.

He took the pacifier and gave it to my mum n happily claimed his car. My mum pretended to throw it n gave it back to his mum. Later dat nite his mum pretended to find for the pacifier to put him to sleep and he said "remember aunty threw it away bcoz Im a "Big" boy". He is sooo adorable. His mum sent us a message saying dat "project pacifier" was successful. Now he walks around claiming his a big boy. haha...Im goin back to malaysia in Nov for my uncle's wedding n there r plans to go genting wid ezra and rosh. can't wait til den.

Exams have started. Finished my econs paper 1. Paper 2 tmr. Gotta study. Exams ending on 5th july. It will be a big relief once its over. Den its party time!!! My fren is coming down from london. So more parties awaiting her arrival im sure. Haha....

New Hp!!!!

2007-06-17T18:34:00.000-07:00

I finally got a new hp yday!I have been waiting for it for the past yr. My mum was in a great mood and decided to get me a new hp. Its the Nokia 5200 one of the music phones. Im really happy abt it. Its not the latest model or anything but its enough for me. Its definitely better than the Nokia 6100 I was carrying around. The only prob is Im still figuring out how to use it.
I saw my grandma yday!Im sooo happy. Its double happiness yday. Had lunch in her house. She always does my favourite mutton curry. Spent some time there talking to my grandma. I feel sooo happy to see her.

'Interview'...Haha

2007-06-15T01:10:00.000-07:00

Something very interesting happened today. A tamil radio station called me and did something like a 'interview' and asked me to dedicate a song. I was damn shocked la. Then I found out that Kala akka gave my name. The host for the show was Shobana from the tamil beauty contest. When I picked up the hp I thot it was shoba from MI. Lucky I realised before I could say anything stupid. She asked me wat was the latest tamil movie I watched and I named one that came out last yr! Was damn embarrassing la. The whole thing was a flop la. She asked me what kinda movies I like n I said comedies. Den she asked wats my all time fav movie n I named a movie about terrorism!Like wth. Couldnt think of anything la. Den she told me dat its not a comedy like I didnt noe. But then wah I felt stupid la. I had to talk in tamil on top of that which made everything even more worst because I started to talk in like a bit of celyonese tamil.Lol! At the end of the 'interview', she asked me to dedicate a song and told me that was goin to be aired in S'pore M'sia and Australia!!!.Then she asked me to suggest friends who they can call and 'interview'. I gave them Shoba, Durga and Hema's numbers. Haha...Let them suffer also la.It was an interesting experience on the whole. Haha..Wonder how the others managed:p

B'dae celebration and Grandma

2007-06-14T01:45:00.000-07:00

Just celebrated my sis b'dae on tue. My cousins, my sis and I went to watch Ocean's Thirteen. Initially I wasn't really keen on watching the movie. However we went for it as my cousins really wanted to watch it and I had the movie discount vouchers from thr red cross for donating blood. The movie was quite good compared to the first movie which I almost died of boredom watching it. It was more funny and hence more enjoyable. My sis got more money than me la for her b'dae!!!The highest I got was $110. She got $150!! I guess people forgot she is 15 and not sweet 16. So unfair! But my mum took away 50 bucks to 'save'.haha...Since my b'dae is very close to my parents wedding anniversary and their b'daes I end up buying for them presents and finishing my money.=(

Im goin to see my grandma on Sunday. I havent gone to see her for a month. I totally miss her!!She is the best grandma in the world(at least for me). I love her soooo much!!!! When she was in hospital i was sooo afraid of losing her. I can't imagine that. She is very weak. Can hardly walk. Yet she is always on her feet to serve my cousins and me food when we visit her. She is always prepared to give all the food at home for us and not eat much herself. There is feeling of warmth and love in her house that I jus love. My cousin bought a little frame like things with quotes for my grandma. One of it says " there is no place like home except Grandma's". I totally agree. I can't wait to see her on sunday and have lunch. Even food taste different in her house when she serves it. This is a picture of my grandma and me...The white thing on her forehead is holy ash....haha..some people thot its rash!!!Lol!

Holidays...

2007-06-04T21:27:00.000-07:00

Holidays have begun dat means more parties!!! My relatives from KL came for a visit. Which means more excuses to have parties!More n more food. I had three parties consecutively so yea loads of food. desserts have were fantastic. Holidays rocking man!!12th of june my sis b'dae. that means one more party to look forward to...haha=)
Went cycling in pasir ris park with my cousins yesterday. Damn fun la. We were jus having kiddy fun on sun. Brings back a lot of memories when i was younger. I used to go wild in pasir ris. It was like my favorite place when i was young. Nowadays when i go pasir ris park its usually for bbqs. So 2 of my cuz Leela n Sarath and my sis Rubini decided to cycle and slack at the beach yesterday. We raced like mad til my sis lost control of her bicycle.she fell n hurt her ankle. Was bleeding like mad la. But she jus went on cycling. Im sooo proud of her. After cycling which was abt 8pm we went to ben n jerrys to have ice cream. mine was choc fudge brownie. delicious beyond words. Yesterday Sarath came over to watch some movies n play carrom.haha...lost to me=)

Today Im sick!I think too much of partying.haha...woke up this morning n threw up!Very bad flu. can't go out maybe for the next 2 days at least. Was think of playing basketball with my cuz tmr.=(I'll go on Thursday instead=)I need exercise!I feel like a pig eating non-stop at home. Food is my motivation.haha...confirmed by the lifestyle workshop.talking abt food im hungry.
thats it for now.Will try to update soon...

Busy, Busy, Busy

2007-05-16T22:01:00.000-07:00

Sooo much of work has kept me occupied that i couldnt really update my blog...sori ppl. Many things have been happening.
I was on stage again. another tiny character. But it boosted me. It feels nice to be on stage anyhow. Drama is very fun.All drama peeps rock!! The Pu1 drama members seem to be very dedicated to the cca. We have all sorts of characters. Different personalities can jus be themself in drama. I really look forward to drama every week. Drama room is like a place to unwind and jus have fun. I love Drama...=)
I got my pw group. Shaza(leader), James(Motivater..haha),Greta(Researcher), Hui Ping(Summariser) n me(Task Manager). Im quite happy with my group. We can work together fairly well. Hopefully this goes on.Greta, greta, greta... we are jus fated to be in the same group since sec sch. hmm...We handed up our first gpp already. Waly Disney is a very inspiring character. We had soo many ideas that it was and is still difficult to come to an decision on wat exactly our proposal is. We will figure it out soon. 2nd draft passed up today. Hopefully we will overcome all odds and achieve a good grade at the end of it all.
My family friends' grandparents are goin to US to visit their son for two mths. There was a party last night. Jus a mini one to send them off with best wishes. The desserts were fantastic. Chocolate fudge cake, another chocolate cake from breadtalk which was really good and cheesecake with digestive biscuits base.mouth watering. However my mum's oreo cheesecake is jus unbeatable.Its beyond belief. for me at least...The dinner was pasta...Jus delicious!!Den I went back home and had ice cream. Tiramisu Romance..haha.
Will write soon=)

Pics

2007-05-03T04:33:00.000-07:00

Hey here are the pics...Ezra is three and rosh is eight. Ezra has the habit of wanting to buy everything he saw. it was very funny when he insisted we buy a $3800 telescope in the science centre. I had to practically drag him out. rosh has the habit of giving in to her brother no matter wat. sweet gal....Really miss them=(

Ezra

Ezra excited
Rosh

Rosh
My cuz...Thulasi,Ezra,Leela,Mims

Again
Rosh

Everyone
Rosh

he jus loves fishes
The whole family
my dad n rosh
fascinated

Rosh
Ezra having more fun
Me n ezra
Rosh n ezra

Roshnee
Ezra
Ezra at the science centre

My dad n ezra
Ezra having fun
Wun let go of the ball

Happy Times

2007-05-02T05:30:00.000-07:00

I had sooo much fun from friday til yesterday. I brought my cuz to the jurong bird park and the science centre on sunday. It was wild. On monday they went to the zoo but I had school so yea I couldnt go...=(. But I went for two parties and played with all my cuz and overall had a great time. except that since I gave up my room for them, i had to sleep in my parents room on the floor for like 5 nites. The only part I didnt like coz it gave me body aches. I didnt even have a mattress. All I had was a mat and a pillow. I gave d extra quilts to my sis. Sigh...but it was all worth it. I managed to download the pics of my cuz. Will be posting them soon=)

Stepping Stones

2007-04-27T07:23:00.000-07:00

My first time on stage...it was amazing! I didnt do anything much but I just felt like I had accomplished something. It feels good. My friends cheering for me. The pleasant surprise(I hope) on their faces was very funny. I wanted to break free from my comfort zone and try things I would never have dared. This was the first step. It feels good. Today is a very eventful day for me. Unforgettable. My little cousins are down from Malaysia with their parents(duh...they are three and eight) and are putting up in my place. They are all sleeping in my room. So yeah Im chased out of my own room! But its goin to be a fun weekend. I will post pics of my drama performance and my cuz soon. Thats all for now...

Blessed

2007-04-24T01:44:00.000-07:00

Friends...I am truely blessed to have friends who know what I am feeling without me telling them. they know me sooo well that things can be said just by expressions. Friends who always write words of encouragement to me just when I am at the lowest point. I don't know how to thank them. but those words of encouragement have driven me to work harder because I know that my friends are there for me to lean on when I need them the most. I thank them sooo much because I feel appreciated and that means a lot to me. I would like to share one of the notes I received lately that has helped me at a my lowest point.

Behind your smile

I know there is sorrow

Behind your laughter

I know there are tears

And I want you to know

Behind you

There is me

I hope that this has inspired you as much as it has inspired me to drive on.